What lead me back to God

What lead me back to GOD
By: Tabitha Norvell    Insuliteangel29@gmail.com

  When Chris (my loving, supporting, wonderful husband) and I got married I was the girl who thought that marriage was all about the big house, new cars, white picket fence and 2.5 kids. All I had ever dreamed of was being that wife who gave everything that she could to her husband and had kids and the dog and life was good. I found out the hard way that there were other plans in motion and that the next 7 years of my life were going to be trouble, heartache, sickness and doubts. It got so bad during our 5th year of being together that we almost called it quits. Filling for divorce sounded like the best answer for what was going on.

  I look back on it now, we are going on 8 years of being together and 7 years of marriage and I ask my self, "what was it that changed our minds?", "What was it that brought us back together?". If you would have asked me for the answers to these questions two months ago I would not have been able to give you an answer. It wasn't until I got right with God again that I started to truly understand what was going on in my marriage. Don't get me wrong I went to church, I prayed and I never stopped believing in the Lord. But I wasn't close to him. I did not have a relationship with him like he wanted and expected me to. There were so many things that I was doing wrong, like complaining to my husband about how all of this was his fault and that he never did anything to make things better. I always felt like I was the one in the family who took care of everything. I had to pay the bills, keep the house clean, take care of the animals, cook all the meals, and take care of whatever kido was staying with us at the time. I knew in the back of my head that he was working really hard at his job and was the sole provider for our family, but to me I needed more. That wasn't enough for me. I was tired of making all the decisions, I was tired of having to do everything because he was always gone. Even when he was home he wasn't really home. There are times today that I still feel this way.

   At the beginning of this year I decided that it was time to get back to what God wanted from me. How he wanted me to act, how I was suppose to treat my husband, and to build a solid relationship with him through my self as well as my marriage. I started doing research, searching the bible for all the things that God had laid out for us as wives and women of God. What I found shocked me. There were so many things that I was doing wrong or wasn't doing at all. I broke down in tears and decided it was time to start living the way that he wanted me to. This has not been an easy thing, I struggle with this everyday. But I know that for me this fight and struggle is worth every step.

  This battle may not be for everyone and that is ok. Some may be further ahead in their walk with God and may read this and think I was once there. We are all in different stages of our spiritual walk with God and some may not know him at all.

  What I am going to share over the next couple of weeks is what God laid out for us as wives, girlfriends, fiances. What his word tells us we are suppose to do for our husbands. I am going to share information from " The Power of a Praying Wife" By Stormie Omartian, I will be putting together another blog for "The Love Dare Day by Day, A year of Devotions for Couples." By Stephen and Alex Kendrick so that you can all see and experience what my husband and I are doing and learning.

  I ask all of you to please share your stories, advice, comments, concerns or questions with me. I am happy to reach out and help you, talk with you, support you and just be there for you if you are ready to talk. It doesn't matter if you agree with what I am sharing or not I want to hear from you and will be happy to listen to anything that you have to share.


Lots of love, Warm wishes, and Blessings,
Tabitha